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Dull Rants.

Stuff that I felt like ranting about on the internet for whatever reason.

In which time keeps rollin' on.
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It has been rather a long time since I last posted an entry, hasn't it. Dear me. I very rarely feel like I've got much interesting to say on Livejournal for some reason. On Facebook I barely ever shut up. LJ entries feel somehow important, like it's worth trying to do them right, for some reason. I'm not very good with things that feel like they're important, for whatever reason. Messes me up, man.

Cut for your sanity.Collapse )

In which I return and summarise.
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So after about three or four months of not posting anything I thought I might go right ahead and come back. I don't know quite why I stopped posting, I guess I got momentarily busied by other things and then was struck with an incurable case of procrastination (as is usually the way). I'll aim to quickly blast through the last few months of my life in an order that is unlikely to be entirely chronological. Walls of unbroken text, just like the good old days...Collapse )

Another entry which I am posting.
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Less wall, less fearCollapse )

PANIC.
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TEXT WALL OF FEARCollapse )

I don't do stuff or anything.
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All cut and no text make Stan a responsible Live Journal userCollapse )

Stuffs.
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Alriiiight guyyyyyys. Not a whole lot's really been going on, as usual, but a bit's been happening. I mentioned in front of a tutor that I hadn't practised in over a year and he facepalmed. Another tutor asked to see my notes and I said that the scrunched up piece of paper I had in my hand did have notes on, but that I'd eat it if he tried to take them. I also failed so hard at lyric writing that I drew a big picture of squiggly lines and eyes and ended up having to show him that, which I didn't think I'd have to do. I've also been putting my hands over my ears and going 'lalalalala' at all the work I have to do. But it'll turn out fine.

It ALWAYS turns out fine.

I played another gig with Telepathetic this time headlining in the first time in forever. There was a 100db limit on the sound, which is totally unworkable. I could easily have a conversation with Dave while playing, and sometimes did. I kept making pained cries when the sound engineer came on to turn me down. I tried to keep the energy up by jogging on the spot and headbutting cymbals and shouting lots and stuff, which got tiring. Mikey actually started reading a book while drumming in a song. During soundcheck I also beat a bunch of people at Scrabble, which is odd for me. An overall success of a gig, I think, but I never want to play there again. 100db = not enough.

After that I went to Alf's party. I felt a strong feeling of pride watching that boy come of age. He's grown so much! 18 now. But yeah, glued myself to Anya like usual and slammed back a few drinks before Reuben pulled me in to our now legendary Killing in the Name dance routine. I put in effort, moshing and headbanging and rave dancing and slapping away, and was further tired out by it, but apparently it was rather poor. Oh well.

Ah, and my 30 day thingy. I've fallen behind after doing only the first day, what utter failure. Let's catch up, though.

Day 02- Where you'd like to be in ten years.
Day 03- Your views of drugs and alcohol.
Day 04- Your views on religion.

Day 02- Where you'd like to be in ten years.

Iunno. Sat around in my large middle class house tasting some fine whiskey while looking over a letter from the PRS detailing the money I've made of royalties. Maybe I'm also considering doing a bit more songwriting/playing (another album or summat), or maybe I've gotten a job doing something like writing magazine articles about music and that (maybe books?). Maybe I've even done a talk or two. MAYBE I HAVE CHILDREN? Who knows. Either way, I've got work I enjoy and I'm making an alright living off it.

Seems quite unlikely, really.

Day 03- Your views of drugs and alcohol.

Be educated, and make decisions accordingly. Neither drugs nor alcohol are a way to get rid of problems, virtually all of them have quite nasty side effects, and you need to know exactly what effects what you're taking will have on you, and why. That said, many drugs thought to be recreational have many other purposes (medicinal and otherwise practical) that they're not being used for and should be.

Also, they're fucking expensive! If that's not a reason not to make a habit of it, I don't know what is. That said, if you know all you need to know, still want them, and have cash to burn, go for it.

Day 04- Your views on religion.

I find all belief in God as a higher power a little silly, personally. It's in no way logical and that just doesn't sit right with me. I also believe that relying on an ancient, highly unclear and obviously self-contradicting book (which most religious texts are) for one's morals is highly inadvisable. I do believe that there are many workings of the universe and the human mind in relation to it that we don't fully understand, and strange things do happen - that could be regarded as a kind of spirituality, and I at one point referred to myself as a Pantheist, but I dunno. Depends how you look at it.

Dan explained to me the difference between orthodox and orthoprax religions (or rather, he told me to google them) and orthoprax does seem more reasonable, if not a touch odd (maybe... pointless?) at points.

I do actually have quite a lot of interest in religion though, but perhaps in a way more linked to an interest in mythology than anything. I remember an old bass teacher of mine, Franc O'Shea (who I've probably name dropped all over the place) had a rather extensive knowledge of the occult, religion and history, and the way it all related to music, which was really fascinating. There are so many little partially hidden parts of the Abrahamic religions that are so very weirdly occult.

But yeah, if you count out that it's generally holding the world back and getting in the way of just about everything while not doing a whole lot of good, religion could be like my (slightly evil) twin: useless but interesting.

Although religion is useful for controlling the masses. Never mind, then.




In unrelated news, part of me feels tempted to jump on the video entry bandwagon. Can't think what I'd actually do with the time, but hell, why not? Is it a good idea though, I wonder? Reallllly?

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To kick this post off - what's even been happening to me? Telepathetic played gigs, I went into uni, I procrastinated over work, I didn't get much done, just like every other post. I'm sure other things must have happened. Oh, I got a pretty nasty flu and pulled a muscle at the same time. It was a poor combo. I spent ages surviving off painkiller cocktails while hallucinating that everything in the world was dramatically changing size. There was this little bale of paper near my bed, and at first I was shocked and stunned that I could even see it when it was so microscopically small, before I found myself staring up at it towering above me and being unable to see anything more than a little corner of it. This happened with most objects in the room - I was totally tripping balls on flu. But yeah, now I'm even more behind on BIMM stuff.

The weird environmental/fashion/whatever based gig me and my group 'The Green Network' are meant to be putting on is kinda going somewhere after I sent lots of long messages to everyone. Dunno quite what I'm meant to be doing now, I'm sure we agreed on roles though. I'm not optimistic about it being a fantastic night, but I'm sure something should get done. There are also about a million other things I should be doing, involving the dreaded ACTUALLY PRACTISING MY BASS. But anyway...

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So, first of all in relation to the previous mentions of that old Comet job of mine, turns out that by quitting I missed out on A) large amounts of money for the days I would have worked plus holiday pay for the days of and B) an iPad that my performance had put me onm track to win. Haha. Hahahahaha. Funny shit.

Cheese and Whiskey EveningCollapse )

In other news, I'm back at BIMM which is interesting. There's shitloads of stuff that I should be doing, which I'm kinda getting started on, but it's all a bit slow. I also let slip in front of a tutor that I haven't practised once in the past year. Lollll. I should probably get on that. I've also been doing some more gigging, and it' not sounding too bad - I'll see if I can get another recording sometime soon.

I'm sure there was other stuff I meant to write about, but never mind. 'Sgone now.

New Year and the like.
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WARNING: Opens with negativity. There are positive bits thoughCollapse )

Telepathetic
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Behold, my band performing our instrumental song 'Jim' at the BIMM End of Term gigs. The rest of my writing is under thisCollapse )

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